The Murrays are Doing WHAT?

I've been called to some crazy things over the years, but God dialed something in this time that seems insane. Certifiable even. I tried to ignore the call for a long time. Sent to voicemail, said I'd call back later, straight up declined the call. He kept calling though. Time and time again. So here we are....

HOMESCHOOLING. That can't be right. Why would anyone choose to do that? How did we end up here? Wasn't the plan always for me to return to work? The kids would go through school like we did when we were kids and life would be normal. In all of our planning and calculating and budgeting and forecasting, we forgot one huge factor: God's specific call for our family. 

God planted this seed in my heart years ago, when I was pregnant with Harris. For the folks at home wondering how long it takes for a seed to take root in Ashley's heart and grow, that was 9 years ago. For 9 years this idea of homeschooling has bobbed in and out of conversations in our home. We always ended the conversation with the same conclusion: "we will stay in public school as long as it works for our family." Well, here we are 9 years later and it just stopped working for our family. I prayed. I prayed hard for the desire to go away or for Eliot to say "absolutely not" but neither of those things happened. In fact, we both arrived at the same conclusion, at the same time: it was time to step out in faith and become a homeschooling family. 

We made the decision to act now with Harris and let him finish his 2nd grade school year at home. This wasn't because we disliked his teacher or because something severe happened. He was excelling both academically and socially, but I just knew that the time for him had to be now. I felt this urgency in my heart and Eliot agreed that there was no benefit to waiting. I started my research on curriculum and talked to as many friends as I could about their home schooling plans. I attended a Home School 101 at a local church to hear moms and teens share their thoughts on home schooling.  I ordered a full 2nd grade curriculum and shared the plans with Harris. I cleaned out the toy room and with help from Eliot and my step-dad, moved a book shelf in there to hold our books and supplies.We slowly began telling our friends and family. We told the teachers and staff at the school and tried our best to explain that what had been on our hearts for so long was so much more than any petty complaints that we may have with school. This was our calling and I was no longer willing to ignore it or try to justify it to anyone. People were supportive and encouraging, which made it all that much easier. I was so grateful for that. 

I've decided to answer questions along the way and to hopefully encourage others to step out in faith in areas that seem scary so I dusted off the old blog! I haven't written on this blog since Chandler was 6 months old. Woah. I'll save the reflections on THAT for another time. Back to home school...

Friends have been curious about our big move so to answer the questions that I've been asked by so many over the last few weeks, here's a little Q&A:

"Was the school you are zoned for a bad school?"

Nope. Not even close. Our school is a Blue Ribbon school. It's one of the top elementary schools in the state of Georgia. We have some of the best teachers at our school. Our PTA is the stuff of legends. All staff, from Principal to Custodial Staff to Bus Drivers to Crossing Guards are the kindest, most loving group of people you could ever hope to have caring for your children. We say that our school is like a private school education at a public school cost. Eliot and I bought the house we live in specifically to be in this district so that Murray kiddos could attend this school. 

"Then why would you pull your kids from such a great school?"

All of the above being said, it is still a public school and with that comes public school woes. There are lots of little things like class sizes, testing, homework every night after they've been in school all day, limited recess time, etc. All of those things could be dealt with though if not for the biggest, most obvious reason for our family: the disconnect between home and school when it comes to our faith. We began looking at the time the kids are spending in an environment that doesn't allow Bible study, group prayer before meals and a Biblical worldview and just didn't feel good about it. Have there been blaring contradictions to our faith being shoved in our kids faces? No. In fact, all of our teachers so far have been Christians. However, I started feeling God calling me to redeem the time. There are HOURS and HOURS of my kids days that I HOPE the voices they're hearing are Spirit filled, but I have no idea. They're exhausted after school and the last thing they can handle then is sitting at Mommy and Daddy's feet to glean some wisdom from the Bible for their day. We always thought we'd be able to contradict the world's voice in our kids' lives, but we never planned for how little time we'd have to do it. So, I took back time with my kids. They're my kids. I get to determine what they do with their time right now. The end. 

"Were you a teacher before having kids?"

Nope. I taught preschool at our church for two years but my degree isn't in education. I was a social worker before the kids turned me into a Mommy. I worked with pregnant women on Medicaid and loved it. It was a beautiful, wonderful job, but it didn't prepare me to educate my children full-time! Thankfully the resources out there for homeschooling parents are endless. I have found some very user-friendly curriculum.

"Why have you only pulled Harris? Will Chandler stay at school?"

There have been SO MANY questions since we made our decision. I think the easy assumption is that there was a scandal and that something bad must've happened for us to pull Harris mid year. There wasn't. We made the choice to pull Harris because I saw a change in him. He was exhausted, moody and emotional. He was crying over the time spent on homework and stressed over test performance. He cried because he made a 95 and not a 100.  I saw our relationship in a fragile state and no time to repair or strengthen it. He is incredibly smart and needed to take some ownership and leadership with his education. 

Chandler is exhausted and moody and emotional and ALL THE THINGS, too. However, she doesn't  have excessive homework and tests every week. First grade allows for lots of playtime and singing and dancing- all of which make Chandler's world go round. Chandler's teacher this year is her favorite person on the planet and I think if I took her from that, she'd never forgive me. 

Selfishly, it's also easier to ease into this with one kid and not two. A big benefit to only having Harris until August is this gives us the opportunity to work our way into this home school journey. We can figure out what works and what doesn't before adding another "student" to the mix! So for those reasons, Chandler will finish out her first grade year in her classroom and join us in the fall. 

"Is Chandler jealous of Harris being home with you?"

The short answer to this is yes. When faced with the choice though, she chooses her teacher and her friends in her class this year every time. In addition to her love for her teacher, she also has some of her very best friends in her class. She's happy as a lark. So as much as she may feel jealous that her brothers have Mommy all day, she wouldn't dare choose to give up her classroom situation this year.  She is super excited about what next year holds for her. She talks about our field trips and which books we might read! Doing the right thing for your children doesn't always mean doing the same thing for all of your children. Fair doesn't mean same.

"What does Dean do while you're doing schoolwork with Harris?"

He's 2 years old so he does WHATEVER THE HECK HE WANTS. Kidding...kind of. He goes to preschool two mornings a week, my mom's house one morning a week and "helps" Harris and me the other two mornings. (translation: totally distracts us from work because we're laughing at him so we wait and do serious work while he's napping. It's working for now. We'll adjust when the need arises.

"Are you doing a hybrid program or are you on your own with this?"

This year I'm "alone" since I'm not in a co-op or hybrid, but I have some dear friends who are holding my hand on this journey. I have a full curriculum by Memoria Press that is just lovely. Next year, we will join our local Classical Conversations co-op, but still use some pieces of Memoria Press. The beauty of home school is that I can pick and choose exactly what my kids need/want.

"How long will you do this?"

I have absolutely no idea. It's a year by year decision and that's about the only thing I'm sure of. I know that while I am 100% in right now, I won't always be so sure of my decision. Years ago my mom told me that once you become a parent you will always second guess yourself and the decisions you make for your kids. I'm okay with not being sure of myself, I have a big God that I never, ever second guess. He's in charge here, not me. 

"How are you liking it so far?"

We are three weeks in and I can honestly say at this point that I love it so much. I love the time I have with my Harris. We've already had so much fun and will hopefully build on those memories. Of course, our little school won't be complete until my Chandler is home with us too. I'm sure I won't always be so positive about my new gig ha! Stay tuned for more posts on our adventures!

That answers the most asked questions I've gotten so far, but if you have read this far and have more questions, please ask! I am an open book, always! 

I appreciate your prayers for our family during this transition and wild ride we now find ourselves on!